I have never felt like I was meant to be with someone like that ever. Almost everything was right, the intensity, the connection. How similar we were. The way I could be myself with her and tell her anything and not feel judged for it.

The way she saw me and truly understood me on a level that I have never experienced in my life, with people I’ve even been with wayyy longer. It makes me want to cry thinking about it. Being understood and seen like that is all I ever wanted. Almost everything aligned.

And she fucked it all up, like we would have been perfect, but she couldn’t be loyal to me. I wasn’t enough for her, despite all the love I wanted to give her… l wasn’t enough. Why not? Why couldn’t my love be enough. What lacks about me you have to seek out in others :(

I just wonder will I find someone who understands me like that again, who will actually appreciate my love. Someone I’m enough for. I just want someone to make me feel safe for once.