I’m 57 years old and recently went through hell. I’ll try and be brief.

Because of an issue in the neighborhood last year I became close with my neighbor. Her husband had left her and she cane to me to keep her company and vent to. She’s 40 and a raging alcoholic. For over a year I spent more and more time with her, helping her with everything from fixing her lawn mower to feeding her to holding her upright on the toilet. We were together pretty much every day. Twice I had to call ambulances for her for various things related to her alcoholism. We were as close as two people could be. She’d call me in the wee hours of the morning to lay wit her and I’d do it. As time went on for some reason I developed feelings for her.

A few months ago she moved to an apartment not far away. But we still were together most every day. We never had intercourse but would play around. One night we were in bed and I confessed to her my feelings. She’s been on a drinking binge for 3-4 months. I told her this but added that I didn’t think we could be together because I would always be a reminder of this bad time in her life. The next night she was in my bed again and brought up what I told her. She said that let’s wait until she gets through this bad time and we could see how things go.

After this night we didn’t see each other for a few days. At her apartment she started hanging out with this almost 70 year old guy that is the maintenance man (she says property manager) at the apartment more and more. Fast forward a few weeks. By this time she has almost completely ghosted me. Anytime I talk to her the old guy is around. After being ignored for an entire week I talk to her on the phone and ask to go see her. She says she’s tired (drunk) and going to sleep. She lays the phone down and I can hear the guy talking and you can tell he’s right beside her. I go anyway. I tried to call on the way but she didn’t answer. I’ll skip to the chase. I get there and she was naked in bed and the maintenance guy answers the door. He shakes my hand and I told him to get out. I walk into her bedroom. He then appears beside me in the bedroom and had to retrieve his belongings from the nightstand beside the bed. So he has obviously been in bed with her.

I kind of blew a gasket but was calm. In the days that followed I said some mean things but she deserved it. She has since completely cut me out of her life and the old man spends every night at her apartment. (There’s a lot more to the story but I’m trying to keep it short).

I was heartbroken but she only blames me for everything saying she did nothing wrong. I just find it amazing that people can do that. Bring someone into their life as closely as she did an then just completely forget you. I have lost faith in the human race.

I just needed to vent a little. There’s so much more that has happened but this is already a novel. I’ll never talk to or see her again which is the only option. But it still hurts. I still love what I thought she was.

Thanks for reading. C