on week 3 of breakup and i’m doing a little bit better than i was but not much (i don’t want to kill myself anymore but i’m far from ok). my birthday is coming up soon and i can’t stop thinking about if she will remember it and text me happy birthday. i want her to wish me happy birthday but i don’t know if i could respond (at least for a while) if she did text me hbd, i don’t even know what i would say i have so many different emotions. i guess i just want her to care about me and us be friends at some point again but at the same time she doesn’t deserve me, and i deserve better. If she doesn’t text me happy birthday i’m just going to feel crushed and like i was nothing to her all over again. i hate that she has this power over me.