I had the answer that I’ve been searching for. It finally makes sense. The person that I went out of my way to try and love unconditionally basically just has been downing my personal life out all over the internet. For a while I had even started to believe all the crap was on me and you know what? I’m not ashamed of what I did to just try to prove that I love him but I am utterly scared and disgusted that this person and group of people found this to be acceptable. How am I ever going to heal or recover from any of this. All I did was have feelings for someone that now it’s obvious treated me the way he did intentionally for what reason I don’t know. I might as well go home and put a bullet in my head so the both of us can just have peace and he can never have to see me again