I’m telling you, breakups (especially the ones you didn’t want to happen) are emotional roller coasters. One day you’re fine and at the top of the hill and the next you come crashing down with all these twists and turns. I’m not even necessarily sad right now, I’m just thinking, longing of those feelings of being in love and how I truly took it all for granted. I should hate him, for breaking my heart and leaving me to deal with the damage (and I think a little part of me still does) but at the same time I understand and I sympathize with him. I truly wish him nothing but the best, even though I won’t be a part of it. I think I’ve come to understand the advice that people have given me. It was along the lines of “you’ll move on with your life and do great things, but there will always be a part of you that will hurt when you think about it”. I am in a better place, I have done great things, but even now I still cry when I think about how my life was. If you made it this far, I want to say you are loved and you are cared for, even if you don’t think you are. Please don’t hurt yourself or do something stupid because you are in pain. Feel the feelings and go through the motions, even if it only just gets you through the day. If you feel that you have nothing to hang onto and hope for, appreciate the little things. Sometimes they were the only things that got me through my day. Thank you for letting me vent and I wish happiness and peace upon all who read this ❤️