So I met this person I loved so dearly, I was ready to move everything to be with her. She's smart, funny, and was so very gentle with me and my heart. She's gorgeous. I could stare at her and admire her beauty for the rest of my life.

We talked about anything and everything. I felt comfortable enough to tell her all my insecurities, I was always excited to hear everything she had to say. Our disagreements were always fixed with gentleness. We worked so well together. We had all the love, we had the same values, and we had great chemistry and attraction to each other.

I don't think I'll ever meet anyone like her. It's so rare. I love her so damn much it hurts knowing that I'll never be with her again. All those dreams are gone.

Dating someone else would be incredibly unfair to them because I would end up imagining it was her I'm holding and talking to.

I'll have to learn to live with this pain for the rest of my life. The worst thing is, I'm scared because I'm young. I'm scared of going every day like this.

I love you so damn much F. I hope someday you come back home.