He only comes to me when he wants or when it doesn’t work with another girl. He always puts HIS needs first. He mainly cares about himself. He was rude to me a few times and said I was a bit annoying. I begged him for a special picture and he couldn’t even send me one when I wanted. But when he asked me for things, I always pleased him and when he kept insisting, he always got his way with me. I feel dumb now. He doesn’t care about me. He doesn’t know my favorite movie or my birthday but I remember his. Probably lied about many her things and maybe has a long time gf or partner. And most importantly this whatever we had was never stable. It was only stable in the beginning. I need stability to be at peace.

He is promiscuous and I was always jealous. Polar opposites together sometimes are not good. I’m glad I didn’t give him any part of body because he would have left me alone after. And I’m glad I can say he never had me! I’m so proud of myself. For staying true to myself. He is the reason why I lost so much weight probably and from heartbreak. I never cried about someone so much. Not even after my ex. I thought I had found someone that matched my energy for once. And was my partner but not true. The pain seeing the person you care about the most just deleting you and blocking you when he wants is awful. Being so cold about it too and waking up next morning like nothing happened to him hurts. I was just a pit stop for him. He asked me if I wanted him to take my virginity and next day he said goodbye. I was not planning on it. And glad I didn’t do anything with him! Next day he said goodbye. Hot and cold. I never want to feel that way again. I hope writing this and realizing all these things help me get over him faster. Sometimes we want to overlook someone’s negative traits because of the love we have for them. But we need to look at whole picture