What I liked about him and that he didn't judge me and helped with my sexual guilt. I became more open with him and asked him every question I could think of and he never judged me for being inexperienced. I think that is why I fell for him. I also loved that he saw me as his equal and seems he views other women that way too. He is not a misogynist. He tells you what he thinks and is honest. He used to give me the best advice using his logic when my negative mind would take over. He loves to cook too. He was my voice of reason sometimes.

I liked how he always defended me and made me feel safe. I know he said we lived too far from each other but I would have made it work if he wanted too. And when he told me once I was his partner, for once I didn't feel like an odd number. I felt like I found my partner that made us an even pair. And I liked our conversations and his curly hair and eyes. He can be calculating in a sneaky way but that only makes him more adorable to me. When he doesn't get his way with me, he acts cold. Don't think anyone will ever love him a fraction of the way I am capable of loving him. One of the last things he said, I should give it a try with other guys. So I should but I only like him. I don't know how to get over these ties with him. He was my almost first lover and closest thing to it and I feel sad. I can't get over him. Why do I always think of him when I wake up in the morning and dream of him,. And he just left again acting cold. I don't want to bother him and I'll stay out of his life. Because I really can't lose my dignity and chase after him.