I didn't stand up for a girl who was harassed and later sexually assaulted by our mutual former friend. Now my reputation is ruined and so is my life. I don't know what I should have done and what to do with my life now. The girl that I love now hates me and also my reputation is ruined. the guy was much bigger and stronger and me. I would have died in a fight. Why did it have to happen? My life is over now. No one will see me as a man anymore and my dream of having a beautiful girlfriend will never realize. I wish I could commit suicide but I am too cowardly for that too.

She said if I stood up for her she would consider dating me but since I didn't, there was no meaning. My heart is broken and I suffer because I love her the most and can never be with her.

Is there something I could do to bring her back? I blocked her but I occasionally use third party software to check up her public Instagram. I could use it to locate where she is and go find her. She is a 5 hour by train distance from where I live. Maybe has a boyfriend. It has been since August 2021 and she is a beautiful high value unicorn type of woman after all.