My girlfriend and I had mutually broken to around 5 years ago. This sounds like a long time, as it is, but there are a lot of things that happened during our relationship that makes it still painful to this day that leaves me still thinking of her.

We had been best friends for 11 years, then had been in an intimate relationship for 4 and a half years. Being in my early twenties, she was in a significant portion of my life. I can't explain how close and connected to this person I could feel. It's like my soul still feels connected to her - like there's a faded scar floating in the middle of my chest cavity.

She was my best friend, whom I was deeply in love with, where everything in my life, though was confusing and stressful at points, seemed perfect and seamless when I together with her, or even just thinking about her

The final year and a half of our relationship had been long distance which we both understood was going to be different, but I actually felt it strengthen our love. It was until she decided to move further away that things started to fizzle out as we knew it closeness was going to be harder to sustain. It was shortly after when we decided to break things up in search for something new.

I don't think I've ever been the same since. I've been through an entire relationship since then, and currently in one which I've talk about this with both partners but I don't think I've ever fully gotten over it.

I've also been meditating and doing a lot of self improvement and going to therapy regarding this since then as I was definitely in a much more delicate state back then, but boy it sucks I still think of her this far on.

If anyone here feels anything remotely similar, please feel free to share your stories. <3 I'm hoping this subreddit may prove to be of some comfort.

Take care of yourselves, and sending my love to you x