This year has sucked so bad and all I looked forward to was Halloween. My favorite day of the year and a day I get so excited for. 2020 has taken it. I can’t go to any parties or friend hangouts not that i get invited to many but still. Can’t trick or treat, due to bad money management out of my control there will be no costumes, I have no decorations, no Halloween music has played, both my families carved pumpkins without me and one went to the pumpkin patch without me while the other didn’t go at all. My dad demands I stay home even though my plan was to go to my bfs. I have nothing this year. Absolutely nothing. My one day. My love. I’ve been crying for the past 40 min. I have nothing to look forward to and I feel so crushed and defeated. I didn’t know what else to do so I thought I’d post here even though it’ll get lost. I’m sorry I just feel so empty and defeated.