This is kind of embarrassing. I'm a 23 year old newly out dude and have had 5 meetups so far from grindr.

I get paranoid for my safety so all of my meetups start with us meeting for coffee or drinks or something and actually having a real conversation before we get into things. Just so I can scope out if this person is crazy.

Luckily no crazies yet. Actually, the opposite. Really (sometimes unbelievably) sweet guys.

However after we have sex, we always pillow talk and I can't help falling for whoever it is. I imagine dates and moving in together, the whole nine.

I always end up devastated and in tears when the days pass and I don't hear from the guy, or they treat it like just another hookup, or worse, like I don't even exist to them anymore.

so I don't really know why I do this. Any tips? Am I the gay male version of a uhaul lesbian?