I've finished school for grafic design in 2011 after that I got a job at a small company where I was the only designer. So I never had someone I could look up to unfortunately. After about 4 years the company got taken over by a bigger design agency. At first I was really happy with it since I now did have people to look up to. But after a while we came to the conclusion the job just didn't fit with me anymore with this new company.

At the same time I got pregnant from my first child and I made the choice to stay at home with home for the first years. After a few years I wanted to get back to work again. But after being out of design for so long I didn't dare tot try to apply for design Jobs, so I got a job at a supermarket. But then I got pregnant again.

So here I am, after having my second child. Again wanting to go back to work. But this time I would love to try and get work in de design field again.

I'm trying to build a website as portfolio but I lost almost all of the work I have done for the company I worked for. I only have a few website to show but no print work (I made lots but I never took the files with me when I stopped working there). So I don't have much to show.

So now I'm kind of stuck. I don't really think trying out for jobs in the field right now is the good choice because I have an CV with a really big empty spot and then a supermarket job so that doesn't look well and to top that of I don't have a portfolio to show for.

Do any of you have ideas how to go from here?

Extra info: I have ADHD which I'm still trying to get a hold on but I don't think being my own company is a good idea atm. I didn't keep contact with my classmates so I can't ask them for help and my personal circle isn't all that big either.