I was raised Muslim but I'm too slutty for that lifestyle! I tried posting the next paragraph on /r/Islam but they removed the post so that's confirmation that I should just double down and be extremely sluttier. I've been showing pics of myself and sending my socks to hot guys on X, and thought I should see what the subreddit think, but they just stopped me from even asking lol. They could have helped me but they're MAD SEXIST SO HERE WE GOOO

"I'm not sure if I'll get any help here. I don't know if men truly understand a woman's experience having to be covered up all the time.

I've been independent in uni and wearing whatever I want, but now I'm in my mid 20s my parents are being very forceful. I was going out with a skirt recently and the men of my family literally barricaded the door so I couldn't leave, even though it was a major opportunity for my art stuff. I've been wearing a hijab to appease them so they stay off my back but (and I'm sorry if this is too vulgar) the way it drapes just makes me horny and makes me "accidentally" show certain parts of my skin to strangers in public.

I wasn't like this until I got a new jubbah as an Eid gift from my aunty who went for Umrah. I think it's unlocked a wild side of me. And now a hijab makes me feel even more freaky lol."

The thought of religious repressed men reading that is so fun now, I'm so mad that they couldn't!

"So I'm not sure what to do. Marriage scares me because I've witnessed first-hand horrible treatment of women in my family. I'm so scared of giving up control to a man in such an intimate way. Based on the men that my family have been suggesting, I don't feel like I would have any control over my own sexuality and everything will be up to my husband. I think maybe my recent sexual kinks coming out might be a coping mechanism for that? Like I'm trying to just give strangers intimate details about myself to ease myself into the idea of a stranger having control over my entire body maybe?

I don't know and I don't know if anyone will be kind and give me advice or if they'll tell me I'm going to burn forever but I could really do with a guiding hand. "

Not really sure I believe any of that sexist crap anyway but I thought I'd use their language because maybe they could actually help. But naaaaah imma carry on now, thanks for the confirmation /r/Islam!!!

Im gonna go out so often wearing the thin religious robe with nothing underneath and flash Muslim dads in the mall lol. I know they're the type that would be vocal about how women need to cover up but won't be able to bring themselves to stop looking even with their families right next to them. (Hope this is okay to post btw, I think I have enough karma now?)