This happened Friday, and even in the 5 days since I haven't fully processed it. And sorry this turned out way longer than I thought, so have put section headers.

CONTEXT (if you haven't read other posts)
It requires a bit of context, which are all detailed in previous posts, but the short version is that 3 years ago my cousin Davide from Italy was visting me in the states and we had a threesome with my girlfriend Laura. That same night they had unprotected anal sex and he finished in her (we had never done anal and I always wore condoms). After that, Laura and I had another threesome with my friend Mischa after which she kissed me while she had cum on her mouth. For our 3rd threesome, we paid a pornstar to join us and at the end of that one I sucked his balls and licked his ass while Laura blew him and then after he came he put the tip into my mouth. These two things were the only "gay" experiences I've had and started making me question whether these were threesomes or I was being a cuckold. Almost a year passed, then we had a threesome with my young colleague and then our first proper "cuckold" situation when she fucked the same colleague in the bathroom at a party. He came in her (another first) and then I fucked her while she was wet from his creampie.

MY MINDSET:
In the few months since the 2nd time with my colleague we haven't done anything else like this. The colleague ended up starting a relationship, and nothing else really popped up to make us explore again. Our sex has stayed really amazing and our relationship is strong - we're both good at separating the physical from the emotional. I've never really questioned my sexuality, have always had girlfriends and always think of girls when masturbating. That said, the "gay" moments of these experiences, were really the moments that excited me the most. Really, of the 4 guys, there wasn't even much interaction- I didn't even touch my cousin, Mischa I just kissed Laura while she had his cum on her, and my colleague I just felt his creampie when I fucked her after. The pornstar a year ago was the only real interaction - but it was the most intense with me licking his balls and having the head of his cock in my mouth for a little bit. In the year since I've thought about this a lot and realized it's not about being attracted to the guys but about the combination of being turned on from the humiliation and enjoying giving a service to these guys. I wouldn't like search out an experience with a guy and Laura and I haven't talked too much about what another threesome would look like, but then this weekend it happened.

THIS WEEKEND - THE RUN-UP
I'm in Italy now visiting my family and staying with Davide (who lives in the basement of his parent's house - which is very normal here). It's my 1st time to see him since the experiences a few years ago. We talk a lot and though we did did stuff over zoom once and mentioned it briefly a few times, he's never been weird about it. He quite promiscuous so I've always assumed that it's just one of the crazy things he's done and not as big of a deal for him as it was to us.

I arrived Tuesday and spent most of the 1st days with the older relatives who I haven't seen in a long time. Friday though Davide and his friends from football were gonna go out to the bars. I've known a lot of them since we were young. They're semi-pro so all in great shape and it's always been fun partying with them and I've long admired the relentless way they chase girls and all have body counts in the multiple hundreds. We came back home early in the morning around 3am - Davide, myself, and his friend Matteo. We all settled on the couch to play FIFA and Matteo started rolling joints. As we began smoking Davide was complaining about how they "struck out" and didn't get any girls tonight.

Matteo, who I had told I have a girlfriend when he asked why I wasn't more aggresively hitting on the girls at the bar, started saying how I'm "done with adventurous one night stands and onto boring married sex". I responded that it's not always so boring... and then me and Davide made eye contact and started laughing. Matteo asked what was so funny. Davide just said "nothing" and tried to keep playing the game, which I respected and was surprised that he was kinda a gentleman and didn't come home telling all his friends what he did with Laura. I on the other hand, was kindof excited to share the story - and said, "well - we've had a few threesomes with other guys..." At this Davide paused the game and Matteo started laughing and cheering and saying how insane that was. Then, I said, "including with Davide" - at which point Matteo lost it and exclaimed "fucking best cousins ever".

THE ACTION:
I then explained how the other ones happened, though I saved the pornstar for the end. This absolutely shocked Matteo. Who acted like pornstars weren't real people which was funny. He didn't know who the guy was, and Davide, who I had told briefly, also asked "which one it was?" and exited out of FIFA to pull up his videos on pornhub. Obviously, I'd seen him in action in person, but watching it on the huge 65 inch TV made...everything... seem a lot bigger, and the guys were amazed asking what it was like and how Laura survived.

By this point we were all stoned, and still probably a little drunk, and in a moment of silence, just watching the porn together, Davide lifted his butt up, pulled down his pants, and started jacking off. Matteo didn't seem to notice or care, I know they've been naked a lot together in locker rooms and wouldn't be surprised if they've fucked girls together. He kept commenting on the video and then asked "no offense, but he's a beast, what did you possibly do while he was going at it?" I started to explain everything in detail. Matteo was rubbing his bulge through his pants and half watching the video and half listening to me, responding only with "cazzo" meaning "shit" or "fuck". I explained how I licked the pornstars balls while Laura sucked his dick and Matteo just stared at me and gave a slow motion "cazzzzzooo".

Matteo then also stood up and pulled down his pants, exposing his very hard dick. Just like before, Davide also acts completely normal with his friend getting naked. I end the story saying how after the guy on the screen came he put his dick in my mouth. This time Davide is the one who says "cazzo" and Matteo says "but it's fucking huge!" I mention that it was only the tip. Then Matteo says, "guess this would be easy for you then!" and holds his cock by the base and shakes it a bit. Of all the cocks so far his was definitely the smallest but not tiny or anything. Probably 5 inches and not very thick- hardly more than a roll of quarters. But he was fit enough and handsome enough to not seem shy or embarassed, just matter of fact about it.

I looked at him holding the base of his cock and then reached out to slowly to touch it. I hardly had my hand around it, when he said with a smirk "I have a hand, show me what you really wanted with him" and nodded towards the screen. I got on my knees and between his legs and slowly put my lips to Matteo's cock. I looked up and made quick eye contact with Davide who made no expression then looked away. This made me a bit self-conscious so I kinda just bobbed up and down a little and kissed it more than sucking.

I looked up and Matteo was smoking a joint, hardly paying any attention to what I was doing, which to be honest probably wasn't that enjoyable for him as I wasn't doing much. I looked over at Davide who asked "you good?". I sat back kinda taking in this insane situation I was in, and said "yea" and looked up into Davide's eyes. Then he said, "alright good, come over here" and spread his legs pushing his cock forward. Compared to the porn playing on the TV Davide wasn't packing so much, but compared to Matteo he looked huge - probably a good 7 inches, but very thick, and to me the best part and what I remember enjoying the most from our threesome, his oversized balls - definitely the biggest of the 5 guys I've seen now.

Like with Matteo, I started more kissing it, but then I licked the entire shaft from bottom to top, then tried to take as much as I could in my throat. I went up and down a bit to get it wet and then put my face on his sack and let my tongue go all around each balls, trying to find a balance where my tongue and my lips were all working for his pleasure. I then went back to his cock and slowly got used to more and more of his length. I did what I always loved when Laura sucks me, and put one hand on the shaft, one hand on the balls, and focused my mouth on the head and the bit on the underside below the head.

I was kinda getting into the zone and enjoying myself, but that made me a bit over confident and I gagged a little. At that, Matteo said, "wow he's getting into it- come give me some more". So I switched over. I started doing the same motion to Matteo's cock - which was easier because I could take his whole length without much difficult. In fact his thinner dick felt more like it was poking me in the throat, rather than filling it up like Davide's. Matteo then started dirty talking a little, again mostly just "cazzo" and he began grabbing my head and holding it down hard onto his crouch. At one point he held me down hard, and then stood up fast and almost violently, all the while holding my head so I stayed deep throating him and was forced to stand up straight on my knees in front of him. He then began to face fuck me fast and loud. I was fighting back a bit when I really felt like I needed to gasp for air. He held my head there until really the last possible moment and then pulled out his cock and sat back down. I almost collapsed onto the couch.

Davide stopped stroking for a minute and looked at me concerned a bit and said "are you alright?" I nodded yes and caught my breath. When I looked back up, Davide was still looking at me, then he looked down at his cock and I got the message and went back to work. Again I spent a good amount of time on his balls and licking around his thickness. When the performer on the screen gave his cumshot, Matteo started stroking faster and told me "help finish me off". I was a bit nervous he'd try the aggressive face fucking again, so I started slowly on his shaft. It clearly wasn't going to get him there, so he started stroking himself and I moved to his balls. It almost was like I wasn't there in that he was stroking himself hard almost punching me in the face repeatedly. He was holding the back of my head hard so that I was smothered into his sack. He then started moaning and spurted onto my cheek and neck. Like me, I guess he doesn't shoot, and it was somewhat anti-climatic.

I wiped my cheek off and Matteo went to the bathroom and started a shower. The scene on the tv had ended, so Davide put on another as I positioned myself between his legs. He took off his shirt and I was able to look up at his six pack and strong chest. I rubbed his abs a bit as I sucked him, trying to get any indication of what he enjoyed, but honestly he was mostly looking up at the porn. At one point we made eye contact, I had my tongue out licking his head and he grabbed the base of his cock and kind of smacked my lips and cheek with it. He then grabbed my head and pulled me down onto his cock, I couldn't take it all but tried my best. When I finally pulled out, a stream of spit dangled from my mouth to his cock and he said "fuck yes" which really turned me on and I got back to the action of multitasking between balls, shaft, and head.

Without much warning other than an increased taste of building precum, Davide began shooting into my mouth. I was not expecting just how much cum there would be. It felt like it went on for much longer than any orgasm I've ever had and when I thought there wouldn't be more, I'd feel another shot going in my mouth. I swallowed what I could but some leaked out of my lips and down his shaft. I just kept sucking, I didn't really want it to end. When he made a motion that the tip was sensitive I took it out of my mouth and started licking the excess cum from the bottom of his shaft and his balls.
I probably kept going for a minute or more, before I sensed he was looking down at me. I looked up and we both smiled as we made eye contact. He then said "you're fucking crazy" and then got up to shower.

I went upstairs to the kitchen for water and when I came back the two of them were playing FIFA. I showered and then we played a bit more, noone mentioned anything, but it didn't feel awkward. In the morning my aunt woke us all up for a big breakfast and soon Matteo left. Like before with the threesome, it didn't feel like it changed our relationship at all in the 5 days since. I still have a little over a week here, but don't sense anything else will happen.

I really love your comments and messages- they've made me feel less alone in all this new exploring. Am nervous though to see what you'll say about this...