I [F21] found out about a few months ago that a group of my 4 closest guy friends of 10 years had been sexually fantasizing about me and have been masturbating to my photos. After processing my emotions, I developed a kink (?), maybe exhibition, objectification, or maybe just like secretly being a slut that guys want to fuck and masturbate to.

I've always had more of a "innocent" girl image, as I grew up in church and attended church every sunday. I grew up with a brother that loves playing sports, so I played a lot of sports growing up as well. Also, maybe that's the reason why I always felt more comfortable hanging out with guys rather than girls. I had 3 bfs since high school, and those guys are the only ones that I've had sex with and that has seen me fully naked. I never had a one night stand, never hooked up with random people at parties, etc. But that doesn't mean I'm not actually horny or that I don't like to have fun. I had lots of good sex with my ex's and when I'm single, I go out to parties and clubs, get drunk, dance, and have fun.

Since I found out that my best friends all have been sexually fantasizing about me, I've been secretly teasing them, which has been extremely arousing for me. I was never the one to be shy with what I wore anyways, especially because I didn't think my friends thought of me in a sexual way. So they've seen me in things like booty shorts, short skirts, leggings, tank tops, etc. But after knowing that they masturbate to me, I've been really noticing their stares more and been secretly enjoying it (although they've probably always been stealing glimpses without me knowing before as well).

Since we're best friends, we facetime or video call on discord a lot, and so I've been purposely trying to show more skin while we're on video call. I'm still hesitant and shy to actually show my nipples or anything, but I've been trying to flash my ass a lot more and deep cleavage to them. I was wearing my shortest shorts that barely covers my ass, and purposely pulled them higher up to my waist so that my ass would show a bit. I'd purposely drink a lot of water so that I'd turn around so they can get a good view of my ass on camera, as I walk to the bathroom to "pee". I'll wear my loose tank top without a bra, and they would be able to kind of see the outlines of my nipples through the top. The thought of them taking screenshots and masturbating to those photos of me, gets me suuper wet.

I'll often tease them in real life too. We hang out almost every day, and a lot of the times, it would be at one of the friend's house. One day, I wore a loose cropped sweater without a bra, and leggings to hang out at one of my friend's house. The cropped sweater is pretty short, so it would drop just below my boobs, but it's a thick sweater, so you wouldn't be able to tell that I'm not wearing a bra. We were just hanging out in the basement, and I was telling them a story so they we're just listening to me while looking at me. So knowing that they all had their eyes on me, I took off my hair tie from my wrist, lifted both my hands up to tie my hair up, and the sweater went up and revealed my boobs a bit. I don't think it went up high enough to fully reveal my nipples, but maybe just below that or enough to show parts of my areola. I'd purposely take my time to tie my hair. It usually takes like less than 2 seconds to do so, but I'd do it suuper slowly for like 5 seconds, so that they can get a good view. They were alllll staring right at my boobs and I was so fucking turned on in that moment. I even noticed one of my friend's big bulge over his grey sweater, which was a pleasant surprise.

It's funny because they wanted to "help" me by giving me feedback on different hair styles for my "next date". They made me undo my hair, braid it, tie it a different way, etc. I'm sure they didn't care about my hair, and just wanted to see my underboob and possibly parts of my nipples more and more.

Just yesterday, my new bikinis arrived. I ordered them for my family cruise trip that's coming up in December. I took some pictures of my new bikini and sent it to our snap groupchat and asked them if it looks better than my old ones. They asked to send a picture of the old ones too to compare, so I sent them a picture of me with my old bikini too. One of them was brave enough to make a comment "guys will like your old bikini better because it shows your boobs more" LOL I was shocked that he was so open about that..

I wish I was more brave enough to actually flash them my tits or do something more sexual, but this is it for now..