(I am sorry for so much text. I lost track of time reliving it all and got bit to much into it)

I am 19 and this was the dumbest thing I ever did, yet I don't regret it at all.

Recently I broke up with my boyfriend. He was my first serious relationship and ending it brought me quite low. Almost like some natural countermeasure I went out clubbing much more than usual, well pretty much all the time I could. I was trying to look my best, wear my most revealing clothes etc. I didn't quite put in coherent thoughts back then but obviously I wanted to get dicked as soon as possible in order to get over my boyfriend.

I have never before been with someone outside my own age group but I always found older men attractive. So when one evening, a nicely dressed man in his 50's approached me I felt my knees shake a little. He was really well spoken and I was probably looking at him with puppy dog eyes ever since we started talking. Didn’t take him long to realize that he had me hooked. Some 20 minutes after I met him, he told me to follow him to his car in the parking lot.

In the car I immediately reached over and started to undo his pants but he stopped me. He told me that his apartment is nearby and he would like to enjoy me in full in private. I agreed.

From the car drive I just remember being very nervous as the realization sunk in that I just let a complete stranger, whom I met a few moments ago drive me off to his place.

Right beyond the doors to his place there was a hallway with a mirror on the wall. When the doors closed behind me I was told to wait for him there before he grabs something. With that he went out of my sight. I So wanted to run. But I didn’t even check if the doors behind me were locked or not. My legs were just rooted to the floor.

After what felt like eternity he returned. He was holding handcuffs in his hand. I pulled myself together and said that I don't feel like doing that. On that he responded that doors are behind me and next time I shouldn’t bother a mature man if I am not yet ready for mature fun. On that he turned around and started to walk away. I was horrified when I heard: Wait! come out of my mouth.

He returned, crossed his arms and without ceremony ordered me to undress. With him watching I removed all my clothes except for underwear, I looked at him pleadingly but he told me that there are still clothes on me. Underwear went on the floor too. I tried to cover my body with my hands but that didn’t make him happy. He ordered me to put my hands behind my back and take a wide stance. I felt so exposed that I just closed my eyes.

Next thing I felt were his fingers running all over my body, squeezing my breasts, sliding in my mouth or in my pussy. Soon he turned me around and handcuffs tied my hands. Then he continued playing with my body. I had his hand on my throat while he was squeezing my ass. At one moment his spit landed in my ass crack. He slid in his fingers and started to tease my asshole. I never had as much as a finger in my butt, So I started to beg him not to go there. He wasn’t happy about that and told me he expected more from a slut that let stranger handcuff her not even an hour after first meeting him. With that he pushed me down on my knees.

He was finally undressing as well. I would like to describe his cock for you but I barely got a chance to see him myself. He wasted no time and pushed him down my throat immediately. Right away I started to choke and cough. It made him laugh. He again asked if I was actually ready for this, but before I could answer his cock was again in my throat. I don’t remember much from this part, it mostly felt like a fight for survival. When he was done I had my own spit everywhere running down my body. There was a lot of mess on the floor too. However It didn’t earn me any commendation from him again. He told me that he hopes that I will practice deepthroating once I get home. Afterwards he ordered me not to move again while he disappeared somewhere in the apartment.

I had a moment to have a good look at myself in the mirror on the left. I didn’t recognize myself. I just saw some handcuffed dirty cockhungry whore that wanted to be used. Nor I wanted to run this time through the doors behind my back. All I was thinking about was whether I will be able to please him this time. Him? I didn’t know his name. Didn't bother to ask him even. Yup that couldn’t be me in the mirror. When he returned with a ball gag in his hand I got really excited.

He went behind me and told me that if I had anything to say, now was the time. On that I just opened my mouth wide. It was my first time wearing a ball gag and I hope not the last time. He then yanked me to my feet and led me to his living room where he bent me over a table.

I felt like a perfect fucktoy. Gaged, handcuffed and bent over, ready to be used. But I got reminded that I wasn’t. I started to panic when I felt the head of his cock being pushed against my asshole. Only now I realize that he probably did this just to tease me and wanted to hear my muffled begging. But back then it was so scary. He again reminded me that an easy slut like me should be ready for anything. In the end he gave me choice between two options, either he fucks my butt or instead of that he will spank my ass till it turns blue. I choose spanking.

I never got spanked like that, not even close. It was alright at first but at the end each spank felt almost like a knife cut. I was just left whimpering and crying when it was over. Second guessing If I shouldn’t have just let him fuck my ass afterall. But this earned me my first praise of the evening. He told me I handled the spanking as the slut he expected me to be when we met. It felt so good to be praised even though it took almost a week for my ass to heal up, it was worth it.

Then he moved me from the table. My face ended up planted on the floor, my ass sticking in the air. We finally get around to fucking. After such a foreplay I came instantly. Luckily it didn’t take him long either. My body was so sensitive, my ass hurt so much. I felt each thrust sending shock through my entire body. It felt so satisfying when I felt his seed spill inside me. Only then I realized that he did not bother to wear a condom, luckily I was on a pill.

Ball gag got removed and I was of course ordered to lick up all the cum that leaked out of me. It felt so right to do so. Only then he asked me if I was on the pill, I said I was, but he told me that he would rather make sure. He brought me the morning-after pill which I had to swallow in front of him. Only then I realized that there is no way he did something like this for the first time.

He was nice enough to drive me back to my place afterwards. It was kinda necessary. I never thought that I will ever get fucked so hard that I wont be able to walk afterwards but this came close. I slept till evening the next day, when I woke up I felt really sick and I felt sick the whole next day as well. Probably from the morning-after pill which can wreck your body quite a bit. The whole thing felt like a dream, and I would even refuse to believe that it happened if just my butt wasn’t looking like two blueberries. I promised myself to never do anything like this again.

But just in case, I am practicing my deepthroat skills and I am fingering my butt often now. I am planning to start wearing butt plug regularly too in order to be always ready.