When I was around 16 I discovered a video that changed my life. It made me so hard and I watched it at least 40 times. Little did I know it was sissy hypno and by watching it the subliminal messages were slowly making me crave cock. Eventually I got more into it and couldn’t help but look online for someone. When I was 18 mid September or so it happened I met a dominant black guy online and he treated me like the slut I was at that point. He showed me his cock and all I remember thinking was that I wanted it inside me asap. After a few hours of talking we set up a day and I told him to meet me at my house. I was both terrified and exited since all my other attempts to get dick had been failures.I spent 2 hours washing my ass to make sure I could get fucked without a mess and trained on my dildo as well and as soon as I was ready I messaged him to come over. When he said he was there my heart raced I was excited but so nervous I could barely function. I bundled up since it was cold and walked outside hoping nobody would notice. Once I got to his car he invited me in but then said we should do it somewhere so we both got out and started walking around town looking for a spot. Unfortunately the football game was that night which I didn’t know and we couldn’t find a place at the park I hoped would be the spot. The church was also locked so we walked around trying to find a better spot and eventually found a good enough spot in between the shed and another in an alley behind my old elementary school. He inspected my ass and firmly grabbed it saying how amazing my ass was. I didn’t know he had done it yet but he had pulled his pants down right below his balls. I asked what I should do and he said “do whatever you want” so I kneeled down and to my surprise there it was in my face, his huge black dick and immediately waves of pleasure mixed with nervousness and a bit of excitement rushed over me in a feeling I still can’t quite describe. When I put his cock in my hand the feeling got stronger like a brain orgasm and when he was finally hard enough I put it in my mouth. The feeling was unlike anything I’d ever experienced like an explosion of pleasure and fear and excitement in my mind. I started sucking it barely able to fit it in my mouth but doing my best. He then pulled me up and pulled my pants down to reveal my shapely ass which had just been shaved for him. He grabbed it, squeezed it and spread it inspecting my feminine ass which I prepared for him. He then tried putting his cock in my tight virgin hole but couldn’t yet so I spit on my hand and rubbed it all over my tight hole which allowed his huge cock to push deep inside me. His cock filled me and even hit the deepest point hitting the hole that lead further inside me hurting slightly. He roughly fucked me from behind he’s about 6 inches taller than me so I’m standing on my tippy toes while bent over he continues this and every thrust felt like I was in a new world of pleasure with a small amount of pain. He finished inside me without me noticing before we nearly get caught by some teenagers walking either to or from the game which we could hear in the distance. He pulled out and put his pants on then inspected my dick sucking it for a moment then telling me to put my pants back on as we were walking home I felt a wetness in my ass so I felt it and it felt slimy I touched it and smelled it it smelled like cum so I asked if he came. His only response was “maybe a little.” We then walked home talking about our hobbies and life and about women we were into (since we were both bi) we got back to his car and he left. I never heard from him again but being super horny still and wanting my butt stuffed I snuck back in and went to the bathroom(which was the only place in the house I could really get privacy) where i then turned the shower on (for noise) stuck my dildo to the wall, and rode it till I came loving every moment of it. All of this story is 100% true give or take a few details since my memory isn’t the best. The only time I’ve ever felt the same feeling I get when I first had his dick in my face was when I saw tits for the first time.