Hiiiiiii. I was in a crappy mood last night and thought, you know what helps me feel better? Orgasming, baby. So I decided to record this! In it, I talk about my feelings for a little bit and once I start fucking myself I slip into describing a fantasy as it pops into my head (and sprinkling in just a lil bit of pain, because, you know me). Maybe not my horniest recording - this one's kinda sad so it's totally cool if it's not your thing! And maybe there are parts some of you will like <3

☀️ I’m sooo whiny and needy pls use me ☀️

I also realize that my long closing rambles might have some aftercare-y vibes, so I’ll make sure to put a timestamp below so you can avoid that if desired. I was tempted to cut most of it out but thought I’d try leaving it in for anyone who enjoys that shift back to realness or finds it comforting. Lmk your thoughts on that if you want, but don’t feel bad if you’d rather just cum and go! 😉Timestamps:

• Rambly Intro: 0:00 - 2:45
• Fap (lol) begins: 2:45
• Fantasy begins: 4:45
• Belt slaps: 7:36
• Choking: 9:10, described in detail 14:40 - 18:07
• A few slaps & punches 🙈: 16:50
• Orgasm: 18:12
• Tasting myself: 19:07
• Closing (aftercare-adjacent): 19:30 - 22:52

ALSO: I talk about some risky breathplay behaviors in my *fantasy*, so allow me to give a PSA: If you are going to engage with choking or breathplay, please, please do your research so that you can be informed & do so in a way that maximizes safety & lowers risk for everyone involved. In comparison to actual long-term bdsm practitioners I feel like I know very little, but it still concerns me how many ppl don’t even know the difference between air chokes & blood chokes 😬 I don’t want to give a lot of specific advice here because, I'm just some amateur online who likes to get off, but please do your research, it isn’t hard to find good information out there. (And if you are really at a loss, message me.) AND for the love of everything, never engage in solo breathplay using anything that restricts your breathing; never put anything around your own neck, ever. I know you probably know that, but that warning is incredibly important & personal to me. Okay, rant over, thank you for listening, now go back to having fun & getting off, I hope! 💛 And leave a comment or message me if you want, I love talking with y'all.

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Hiii special ppl who read my loooong posts :) I know I’ve been posting a LOT of rambles lately, but pls don’t expect this volume all the time, I’m about to take a week-long break so I’ve just been recording whenever I jerk off -- may as well put stuff out there while I can! I’m excited to get some more of my darker thoughts & content out there again soon too. I feel like this one might kind of be a turn-off for some of you, haha, but part of what I love about ramblefaps is how they can feel more real & intimate, and that realness isn’t always just pure sexiness all the time, right? Idk. Also someone left the TV on outside my room and you can totally hear it every once in a while 🙄 oh well. And I swear I’m the only person who will notice bc my brain is very conscious of my grammar use (which is pretty hellish for someone whose thoughts meander so much) but there were like 2-3 moments where I totally just say something in plural where I should’ve used singular (“co-mingles,” gross) or vice-versa and it’s pissing me tf off! I obviously don’t expect anyone to notice or care, it just bothered me to hear - I think I’m still just in a weird mood, lmao. But I do feel better this morning! Hope you feel good today as well! 💛