I'm in so much pain, and part of me feels betrayed even if this is probably my fault. Back in August, I met this girl on Tinder who admitted to having just broken up with her boyfriend and was only looking for friends. I decided to be her friend anyways because she seemed like an extremely nice person. We spoke every day for a month and then one day we hung out at the mall. We even made a bunch of plans for future hangouts, which makes me sad to think of now.

Then, she stopped replying for a while. I got really nervous and asked what was wrong and she said that she needed time to herself. I took it as depression and decided to give her space. She went on a trip with her friend and when she came back, she hardly replied to me when I spoke to her.

Again, I took it as depression and gave her more space. I decided to wait two weeks to say that she's a great friend and that she's an amazing person and she replied "thanks." A week and a half later, I texted her asking how she was and she didn't reply.

That night, I saw that she updated her tinder bio from "just making some friends" to "looking for fun" and added a new photo. This made me panic and when I texted hello? Bam, I was blocked. Part of me feels that she used me to make herself feel better and threw me away. But I also keep thinking that I messed up somehow... Now I feel unlovable. I admit that I had feelings for her but I tried to hide it. I must have somehow let some things slip. I feel ashamed and stupid for getting too attached to her only for her to cut me out of her life and find someone new.

I'm currently in the process of finding a therapist to help me through this. However, I don't know when I can find one due to costs. In the mean time, I feel lost and that I'll never find someone like her again. I'm currently in a state of grief and sadness that I haven't been in for a long time. Is there any words of wisdom or advice that you kind people could share that might help? I just don't have a lot of people to turn to at the moment.