I thought being scared of intimacy and the subsequent trust issues was too much. The idea of having sex SCARES me now. Keep in mind, I am hypersexual. I am THAT horrified of the thought of getting attached again. I haven't been sleeping well at night for the past two months. In fact, I had not slept in 48 hours and it isn't uncommon anymore for that to happen at this point. It isn't caffeine or anything and sleep meds aren't working. Not even eating 350mg worth of Delta-9 can make me sleep and that makes me pass out even when I don't want to. Before the past sleepless 48 hours, I had a nightmare involving my fwb and how she ghosted. I really don't want to believe it but can being ghosted really fuck you up this much? I was expecting it to be brutal and for my bag of trauma to get worse but Jesus Christ.