I think I'm finally coming to terms with being ghosted. I gave them the benefit of the doubt for quite some time and even now I am still holding onto hope, but overall, I am starting to realize that I can't explain things any other way. They told me they were going through some things and so I bidded my time. However, seeing them active on various platforms while not answering any messages for the past month or so made me realize that that's likely what they did. I justified it for that long thinking mental health struggles would be enough to explain it, but at this point, I think I am just deluding myself.

Ghosting me, especially when I specifically expressed fear of that happening at one point before they reassured me after, is pretty unforgivable. I am not feeling the anger now because I still want to believe they didn't ghost me but I know once I accept it, I will be livid. I trusted them. I really did. I wanted to hear more about their life and hear them talk about the things that interested them. I was willing to put in the work to do what I needed to do to preserve our friendship. I actually thought I mattered enough to not be ignored and abandoned without prior communication so I pushed away any doubts. I was waiting for us to continue what we had before I saw the hints that we were drifting away. So once I end up accepting that they did, I am blocking them on all platforms. I won't want to hear from them ever again; I would be too disgusted. I don't give my trust easily so betraying it is something that will turn someone from my close friend to my worst enemy immediately.

I guess I just need reassurance. How do I know I've actually been ghosted and not just overreacting? How can I be confident in the conclusion that they did?