I don't usually talk about myself or my experiences so if this story bores you I apologise. Sharings not usually my thing

Relationships and me don't work out. Never had anything serious. Nothing that lasted past 6 months. My numbers aren't high either. I'm not a good looking bloke.

So once again I got myself into one. But it was long distance (me in UK and her in America) we loved our company and always talked about meeting up. We decided to do a 50/50 split on a plane ticket and I had every intention to save up. Thing is. I'm always funny about sending people money. Even my own family. I'm just tight, it's how I've always been. As much as I loved her. I did always think in the back of my mind. That there was nothing stopping her from just taking my money and running. So even though I technically had enough. I held off till I had more and trust her more

Earlier today she asked me for money for her dinner. I thought she was joking. When she asked, I then thought she probably was just using me for money. So I laid it out that I wouldn't pay for the plane ticket. Which got me blocked

Part of me feels i dodged a very expensive bullet. But also I gotta find new love again. I love romance, but I'm just getting tired of finding someone and having it fail 😪