I have anxiety about many things, but for some reason work is a major one. I'm talking about simple part time retail or cleaning jobs, nothing very responsible. When I'm there I feel trapped, I just want to take my stuff and run away, but I can't leave until the shift is over. Until then I'm a prisoner (logically I know how silly this sounds). And when I'm home every minute is spent 'mentally preparing' for the upcoming shift (dreading it while trying to talk myself into doing it), I can't think about much else.

I've had a few short terms jobs. Two of them I quit after 2 weeks, and the third was a temporary job so it was done after a few weeks anyway. I felt this with each one. I have a new one now and once again I'm panicking about the shift tomorrow.

I really want to be able to work, and I hate myself that much more for struggling and not really being able to cope. People constantly tell me I'm lazy, and I'm sure my parents will get fed up with financially supporting me at some point. How am I suppose to function in society?