Sorry for bad English.
I'm a 24 years Guy, who graduated in computer science and I'm studying for Master's degree in Data Science & Machine Learning, doing the last semester, I already did all the exams, really good grades, I go to the gym 3 times a week, I'm doing yoga 2 times a week too (Monday-gym, Tuesday-Yoga, Wednesday-All day to college, Thursday-Yoga, Friday-Gym, Saturday-Gym, Sunday-Rest).
I meditate every day for 15 minutes, I eat healthy even though I'm trying to lose some weight for now, and drink plenty.
I use an app that blocks my phone after using 1:30 hours a day
I don't drink coffee, I never smoked, I never drink. When I can I read some interesting books.
One and half months ago I left p**n forever (I installed BlockerX), because I was super addicted and I wasn't going out often, I was not socializing much, I'm trying to improve this, I'm going for a walk whenever I can every day in some park with some nature for 15-20 minutes every day, my social skills are not good yet, I'm still shy, a lot.
Sincerely I'm going to a psycho-therapist for some thoughts that bothered me when I had 12-13 years old and now they came back just a little while after I quit p**n and it bothers me so much, it destroys me internally, gives me a lot of anxiety and sadness (Probably the addiction started for that thought or some trauma i don't even remember?) and I don't even remember my childhood before 11 years old, it feels so strange because literally, it seems I started living with 11 years old.
And lately, I'm really tired because this thought hurts me so much that sometimes in the gym I can't even raise low weights and sometimes I have anxiety attacks and feel completely dead inside.
Some days ago I started to listen to positive affirmations too may be they could help, I don't know what else I should do to feel better these days, I'm really trying my best but I have no idea if I can do it, these thoughts hurt me so much when I was 12-13 that I completely ran away from them and distracted myself with porn.
Probably my sleep quality should be better, I'm trying to figure out how to do it though..