What do I do?

My life is meaningless. I find no joy in living my day-to-day life. I work on several so-called "delayed gratification" projects everyday. And mind you these are personally curated, they're not arbitrarily selected by any means. I persistently work after my goals for future benefit, but I want some happiness now, too. Everything is "long-term, long-term." I'm tired of it. I will keep working on my goals, but I really do need something I can just enjoy right away for once.

And what ends up happening is that porn and masturbation are the only things that can actually excite me a lot and make me feel really good, even if it's just for a bit. I find myself turning to porn a lot more on days I'm at home. I understand I'm using a short-term fix (porn) to a long-term problem (lasting dissatisfaction and discontentment).

However, nothing really makes me feel joy or satisfied for long.

I'm stumped. I've been pushing on so hard, being consistent with things for so long. I'm beginning to think hard work is not rewarded. Or maybe I am just spoiled and impatient. I don't know. I'm doing my best. What do I do?