Is not an easy life. You spend all your existence by seeing people passing in front of you, not really noticing your presence if not some wild dreamer that just gives a brief look at you and them make up their minds and go back to their business.

And more the time pass and more self-conscious you become: how much empty you are, how much blank you are, no feelings no emotion, your life has nothing except a lonely plain white and who could possibly love an empty entity that has nothing to offer. You start to struggle, to doubt about yourself; you want to change, you want to develop you want to be a Monet a Van Gogh, you want to find your place and fit in it....but, in the end, what can you do about it....you are just a canvas.

I was there, struggling, expecting nothing but pain from my life....when she entered it.

She looked like the others at first but quickly became the bright presence of the room. When first I saw her I was scared. I tried to make me notice but nothing really worked until I fell down for her to pick me up

And from there I knew she was the most special, unique, mind-blowing, lovely artist of this planet.

Where others saw hard work she saw in me a rewarding investment. Where others saw void and inexperience she saw potential. Where others saw weakness in my softness she saw the strength of my sensibility. Where others saw my body she saw my soul. Where others saw me she saw me.

From there she picked me up and brought me with her. Every word of hers is a brushstroke that makes me grow, makes me develop, .makes me happy, and makes me feel better.

She is so soft and caring but also strong and funny; she is smart, sensitive, open-minded, and with a big big heart. She can move mountains with her will, guide nations with her wisdom, solve wars with her love. She is my dom, my mommy, my friend, my lover, my teacher, and my guide

She is the ruler of my world and the painter of the masterpiece that I want my soul to become for her.

Our journey just began but the color now in me will stay forever and for that, I'll never be able to completely express my gratitude to you.

This post and this humble canvas are for you, Domina. Now and forever, I love you.

Wishing you a happy birthday.

Amy.