I'm a 21 year old Male who lives in a small town in he NW Washington state to be exact and Idk why but after scrolling through the sub for a while I feel like ranting so here it is most of it is just going to be me saying what comes into my head. sorry for the length. also if this is not the right place for this please let me know.

I fell like I live in the worst area to be a guy who is into Gentle Femdom, (well it doesn't help that I'm introverted to hell and back so i spend most of my time in my house.) I feel like most of the Females in the area I live in are all subs who are into DDLG and that's fine but me being a sub pretty much rules me out of any potential relationships. I think that I started being more sub like was back in middle school. Back then I wasn't a "popular" kid and I hung out with a lot of the guys that like the same stuff that I did. Shit TBH I didn't really care about being popular all the much, but losing all the "friends" that I had from elementary school definitely hurt. I later found out that most of them only talked to me because we were in the same class. Well anyway because of all that my self confidence is completely shot. Not nearly as much as back then thanks to the friends that I made in high school but its still pretty low. but I do my best not to let it show to my friends. But because of this I usually don't go out much. My days mostly consist of me sitting at my computer all day and because of this I get lectured to by my parents (mainly my father) about how I don't do anything and that I'm consuming too much sugar etc. etc. Its gotten really old and I think that has only made things worse. I feel like I almost try to avoid getting into relationships since my last one didn't end so well. I told my ex that I like MDLB stuff and she seemed to not react to it so I thought things were going to be ok despite her not being into it. (she was into DDLG) but I later found out that was not the case when she broke up with me a day after my 18th Birthday after she gave me a cake and a gift the day before acting like everything was fine. It also took me a year of hounding her for her to tell me that she started to date someone else 4 days before she broke up with me. I haven't been in a relationship since. I have tried to with the help of my best friend who used to live with me at my parents house since his mom past away and his dad is out of the picture. Thanks to him I saw a few girls since then but non of them ever worked out and I'm think its because I'm afraid that the same thing is going to happen that happened my last relationship. anyway to wrap this up does any one have any advice on how I can go about searching for a Domme. I'm sure I'm just looking in all the wrong places but figured I would try here and see how it goes. Thanks for reading my long ass nonsense.