Sorry I'm gonna have a quick rant here. But I just don't understand why is it So hard for most people to just communicate properly. It's been a while that I(19 m ) am trying to be out there in my country's bdsm community (Persian community to be exact) and also putting all this kinds of forums and personals posts and stuff. My overall experience is...that I'm just tired and hopeless of people kinda... even tho I always try to be clear about my boundaries and needs either mention it on forums but still it's rather they haven't read anything that I've wrote and where just bored and decided to Dm me, or when I mention it to them the ghost/block me or just pretend to accept and then ignore it. Now you might wonder what kind of forbidden kink is it that nobody is willing to accept it? ... it's to take things slowly and get to know each other before any action. which is also something essential to me cause I'm demisexual. I hope it makes it more clear that why I feel betrayed and used and lonely when someone that I'm talking to for a day or two and starting to getting hope into knowing them more asks me to send them nudes or do tasks or obey them right away... maybe it is actually too much to ask and life is all about sex and the femdom stuff. Now another small problem is that in my country even tho femdom is something somewhat known . But gentle femdom is not which makes it much harder to communicate needs for me( in the idea of all dommes I've talked to a sub is rather a slave or an age player or a pet as a side). Anyway sorry if it took you some time to read this, but I'm just really tired of this loop (but still somehow with q bit of hope for success) and just wanted to vent a bit. Thanks for reading again :)