I was a bad boy last night and stayed up very late last night(late enough that I'd be embarrassed to say how late) and now today I'm super tired even though I did get a little bit of sleep. I know I should have slept but I made a bad decisionnnnn

I really need to control my sleep better cause I get unbelievably needy when I'm sleepy. I just want a Mommy to snuggle up next to and just fall asleep, I have a really hard time feeling comfortable sleeping next to someone so falling asleep almost feels like it's own act of vulnerability, and makes me feel super close to whoever I sleep next to. I'd feel greedy if I just curled up next to her and fell asleep, I'd want to make her a nice, clean meal she can eat in bed. I want to rub her back and feet, making sure she feels fully pampered and worshipped like a Goddess before letting me curl up against her. If she put on a tv show I'm sure I'd desperately try to pay attention to it, even if I have no interest in it just so she can talk to me about it. Just slowly falling asleep, fading into her.

I'm sorry if this is rambly I'm just tired 🥺