So it's like around a year since I've decided to look for a partner I'm currently 19 so you could say I have a long way to go but I think I've already seen a lot Since I began posting on personals and looking at some more local space I've had the chance to talk to a few dommes and with some of them I've even had some great conversations But all of them where rather too sadistic or harsh for me and we both decided to not continue talking or I've gotten simply ghosted after showing my face Now unfortunately for me I'm still somewhat overweight even though I'm working on it But honestly I believed I'm not that bad looking so it was already a bit hurtful getting ghosted or blocked because of my looks At the end around six month in I met someone really nice I told her right away I'm overweight but she said that's not a problem at all Also we decided not to show our faces until we meet in person I talked to her for almost 4 month and I was starting to like her (kinda felt like I'm having my first love) and we even went on a date which was one of my best experiences ever Even after the date we were so close and talking and chatting all day but after a week she blocked me out of nowhere Even to this day I have no idea why(my only guess is still my appearance) It was pretty hurtful to me and I was not able to talk to anyone about it I was really depressed for a while But then I started looking again and after a while I met someone new who was okay with my looks right away But guess what? She was just looking for pleasure and asked me everyday to do tasks for her( I was not completely against it since I also enjoyed it but it felt meaningless to me ) So she just left when she got bored ( or it's better to say when I was not able to do what she wanted) And after that since now I've only met very few dommes who also ghosted me after seeing my face It's kinda sad that they don't even put the effort to formally reject me So yeah that's my experience Sorry if I've talked a lot I mainly just wanted to vent about it since it was bothering me a lot Thanks for reading