For context, I'm extremely unaccustomed to being touched, to the point that I often yelp in surprise when someone touches me, especially unexpectedly. Every now and then someone notices the repeat behavior but I like to think nobody in my personal life realizes just how much if affects me.

But being touched by a domme has such a different, powerful effect on me. Just thinking about it is already giving me brainfog and I know writing this post is going to take a little bit of time. It's electrifying while soothing at the same time, my heart races but at the same time I feel peace and relaxation. Each touch is like having a thought snatched out of my head. The slower, sensual touches drive my into the deepest of subspaces. Like the only thing that exists is her skin touching mine, and no matter how much I get I just need more. I crave her touch, but at the same time it drops me into such a deep comfort that I can't beg for more. All I can do is feel her touch, listen to her voice, and accept that I have no control. When she touches my private bits I can at least beg, but just being touched leaves me a helpless whiny mess.

And I have one spot, I've only had it touched one time. It's not my private bits, but being touched there is a complete brain reboot. I shudder, I shiver, I whine and whimper, but I cannot resist it. When I'm touched there my body is no longer my own, she pulls my strings and my body acts according to her whims. She is a musician, and I am her instrument. It's a very personal experience for me, it's like the most trust I can put in a domme, more than any kind of sex. It's like giving her keys to the castle, at any moment she can just push my reset button to instantly make me drop into subspace. And the aftercare after is so lovely, having my head pat, the underside of my chain scratched, blankly staring into her loving eyes as I try to come back to reality, everything is so delightful. It's such a powerful experience for me, in some ways it's just as enjoyable as any sex.

Sorry to word vomit, I get the need to just put my very scrambled, very subby thoughts down from time to time.