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And just gonna refer to her as Mommy for privacy and because it makes writing this more fun :p

My ex played around with me a bit but she was super submissive and just did it to make me happy and i paid a pro once. Not complaining about my ex. She was great but its a little hard to get into it when youre trying to submit and theyre trying to do whatever they think you want (if that makes sense, like just knowing theyre not doing it for them)

And the pro was good but involving money made me feel a little weird. It made sense to me because i cant do another relationship and idk. Its paying for a service which is fine its just got a stigma i had a hard time getting past, kinda felt low about myself after paying for a sexual pleasure yknow.

I matched with a girl on tinder last week and within the first ten messages she was saying stuff like “so many thoughts running through that brain and not a single productive one, but thats ok i like them dumb” “You dont need to think, just be my himbo” and it threw me into a sub state pretty quick☺️😅

I sent her a gif of a flower dancing that said “peg me please” and she told me “dont say stuff like that, because I will.” We were texting pretty frequently for 2-3 days and she kept calling me pretty boy and making jokes about me being her dumb toy, and fuck, man😂. she is really good at that. She agreed to let me take her out for sushi today and shes 5’11” so same height as me but she had pumps on so she had a little height on me which was a fun change.

Shes super easy to talk to, funny, and polish so shes got a sexy ass accent🤤 Mommy insisted on driving so i could be her passenger princess and when she pulled up she rolled the window down and yelled “get in slut, we’re going shopping.” I dont know if she knows how hard shes pressing my buttons but its fckn amazing, shes funny and intimidatingly hot😮‍💨

After sushi we drove back to my place. Shes an aesthetician in training so when i say facial its not the dirty one😂. we turned on some tv,she had me take off my shirt, rest my head in her lap, and then she gave me a facial. I was being a little bratty, kinda mocking her accent because I wanted to tease her back/get punished😈. She squeezed my nipple until i yelped a little and said “now are you gonna shut up and be a good boy for me?”

“Yes ma’am”

“Good girl”

All the blood left my brain to the other head at that point😂 while the face mask was drying she brought out some lotion and started giving me a massage. Shes getting training so it was a REALLY good massage. Once she wiped off the face mask we cuddled for a bit. I got to be little spoon🥰

I understand why girls like height now lmao. We’re about the same height but she made me feel small and safe. We moved around so that i was laying back in between her legs with my head resting on her breasts. I love all boobs, theyre just awesome but most of the women ive been with had smaller sets. Mommy came equipped with H 32’s which was NOT clear from her tinder profile but very much a welcome surprise🥵. She told me not to hit my vape when i was laying with her so i tried to sneak a quick hit and she threw her legs over mine and spread them while basically putting me in a headlock and then started tickling my armpit. Im super ticklish so that was hell and im squirming and begging her to stop while she’s saying “whatd i tell you pretty boy? Youre gonna listen to me or else this is what you get.”

So naturally a few minutes later i pointed at the ceiling and said “whats that?” So shed look up and i could try to get a discreet vape hit. I felt her look down and tried to hide the vape in my hand. I turned my head back and she was looking right at me with just the cutest face ever but a look that said im fucked😅 she had her arms crossed over my chest, so she pulled them tight up to my neck and started choking me, hard😮‍💨.

“What did i say? This is what happens when you cant listen to me. Understand?

I was just looking in her eyes, choking for air, half of a stupid smile across my face and pitching a full tent in my jeans. I managed to squeak out a “yes ma’am” but my throat was being squeezed and i was insanely turned on so it came out pretty high pitched and it was more of a moan than a sentence.

“You moan like a bitch”

I moaned right after she said it too because holy shit thats the sexiest thing anyones ever said to me. She kissed me and we started making out. She was fuckin talented at that too. She was shoving her tongue down my throat and biting my lip. I felt completely braindead at this point. Just moanin and groping all of her that i could🫠 I flipped around on her at one point and started dry humping her leg like a horny idiot.

She made fun of me a little for being so horny and then started sucking and biting on my neck while I kissed on hers. She left me the fattest hickey ive ever had and ive got work tomorrow but i dont even care, i was excited that she was gonna mark me🥰. I asked if I could eat her out and she told me to strip first. Happily obliged and then took her panties off. Somehow this woman is just fckn perfect. Such a beautiful tight pink little flower🤤

She tasted amazing. I got a couple “youre good at this” and “good boy”/“good slut” and i got her moaning a bit which made me feel damn good, accomplished lol. I had my face buried in her so hard i couldnt breathe. I raised my head for some air and started saying

“You taste incred-“

Before she grabbed me by the hair and pulled my face back into her

“Im not done yet, back to work”

*muffled “Thank you Mommy”

“Goood boy”

I almost came right there to be honest😅

She let me go to town for a little bit and then suggested moving off the couch to the bedroom. We made out some more before she flipped over to lemme smash. Last tinder date i had i couldnt finish with the condom and i mean thats just sorta how ive been forever. I still use them to be safe but it usually takes away enough sensation that i have trouble finishing. Not this time. Her skin was so soft and the view was just amazing. I think i only lasted like five minutes which was a but embarrassing but she was way tighter than i expected and she was prettier in person than her pics so idk man it was just too much🫠💀

I let her know and she was nonchalant about it but i do still wish i coulda given her a better dickin. Hopefully next time if I can make that happen🤷‍♂️ she told me to grab the strapon. I fetched it for her and ran to the bathroom to take out my plug and do another last minute wash. She had 3 dildos to pick from and ofc picked the biggest one😅

We switched places, she ordered me into the face down ass up position and i was kinda making jokes with her until she went to rub the extra lube on/in me and my brain was soup again. The dildo was curved and she was having issues for a second and then i felt it.

“Oh fuck. Youre in thats it haha”

“Oh babes thats just my finger.”

“*uncontrollable moan”

“The second one slips right in!”

And then she went crazy with it… i have been pegged before but funny enough never fingered. She’s experienced and I swear it felt just as good as actual pegging if not even a little more intense. I was trying to be quiet but I wasnt quiet for one second while she was working me😅 i was biting my mattress, moaning super heavy, and swaying my arms all over trying to grab something like a madman. She kept dirty talking while I was losing all sense of reality and i swear to god my new favorite thing is a Dommy Mommy telling me I moan like a bitch or I take it like a good slut🤤🫠 She was checking in throughout which was really comforting but I could barely respond.

Alright now things get gross so warning for that

After like 10 minutes of getting my ass destroyed by this Goddess she says

“Oh baby, are you sure youre ok? Youre bleeding a little.”

I turnedd around and her hand was soaked… looked like a murder scene but luckily none of it got on the sheets. Now that im not in the situation i think its a bit questionable, but I was 100% hormones and I told her I was good (i really was). I still expected her to stop and clean up, but the second i moved a muscle she just goes, “okay!” And shoves her fingers back into me. It was only like 2-3 minutes after that because i was getting lightheaded from hyperventilating and i started getting self conscious about the mess..

I went to wipe up, she followed to wash her hands and she did a little aftercare which was super super nice. I was standing trying to get clean and she told me to just sit on the toilet.

“Im good its gotta be done soon”

“I said sit down pretty boy, now listen to me and sit down”

“Okay well you are the expert ma’am whatever you say😂”

She brought me some water and just talked with me for a minute and we just chilled naked. I cant re-iterate enough how attractive this woman is. Her face is adorable, body is full in all the right places, her skin is smooth as silk, ive got no idea what shes doing with me but Im praying she’ll let me take her on another date. The #1 thing is shes just cool. I like conversation with her, shes funny and more than excited to teach you all about her interests which is just fckn precious. Stack that on top of her being naturally dominant and somehow knowing exactly what to say to melt a subs brain and shes just overpowered💀🤤

After we got all cleaned up she showed me this really off putting cartoon on youtube but im jnto that shit. We were talking about Dont hug me im scared earlier and now ive got a new freakishly weird show to obsess over. So we watched that, ate pudding, cuddled a bit, and then j bought her taco bell before she started to head home.

As if it couldnt get better, shes poly. Im not in a spot to be anyones partner in a committed relationship personally. I know that but I dont like sex with complete strangers because im awkward enough woth new people when im not naked😅ive basically been looking for a fwb. Somebody i can take on dates, do fun/cute stuff, have great sex but without the weight of a relationship. Idk if that makes sense but i was pretty sure that what i was looking for just didnt exist. Shes got her main partners so i get to be her side piece🥰 (they know about me tho im not about that home wrecking life).

Im really trying to not fuck this up because im lowkey infatuated with her already and she definitely picked up on that. Its just insane to me like she is exactly what i was looking for it, it feels too good to be true tbh.

Advice for all my subby bros out there. Be bold on dating apps. Ive got some goofy pics on there because im a spaz and potential dates have a right to know tha, but nothing explicitly fetish/femdom on my actual profile. I started trying to bring pegging into the conversation after we match like 3-4 weeks ago and believe me there are more girls into it or curious than you think.

I know that was long af and nobodys gonna reas the whole thing but im just excited. This is mostly like a journal entry for myself lol. Just an awesome day i want to remember.

aaaaaand she ghosted me🥲