I’m a sub obviously. I have been attempting to get in touch with an honest domme for 5 years now. I know that I’ve made mistakes and have in the past been a shitty sub. However, I’m at a point where I’ve been seen by most of the doms that I’ve talked to as a toy or only as a body to be used. People only talk to me intil they see I’m fat, or they only want me to do something sexual for them, or they only want me to give them attention until they get bored and leave. I fucking matter. My submission is a gift.

It seems like the second I realize that I don’t have to bend over backwards for people in general I get no attention. At least attention that lasts for a decent amount of time.

I’m sick of being used and I’m sick of people getting mad at me for setting boundaries.

Please note this is not directed at anyone on this subreddit, nor is is directed at any one person. I am simply venting about my situation in general