I really couldn’t figure out what to title this so I do apologize for how awkward it is lol but I just really want to know if there are other people who feel this way.

I’m AFAB and two-spirit but I definitely present very feminine (long hair, I love wearing crop tops and stuff like that and wearing makeup) but as I have gotten older I have gotten increasingly dysphoric about having a vagina. It just feels wrong that I have one. And in a perfect world I know that I would have a penis. Even if I have sexy dreams, in them I have a penis.

I feel bad for my partner because we have been together for three years this year, and I am just completely unable to have sex because of my dysphoria with having a vagina. If it were possible, I wouldn’t even mind just having a large clitoris but I know that’s not possible without having the masculine effects of testosterone, so I feel really stuck where I am right now and I feel kind of just weird because although I have trans friends I know I’m not trans? And I even feel the same way when it comes to sexual partners; I must say that I am generally attracted to women, but I’m just not attracted to vagina’s?

I really just want to feel less alone and like I’m not a weirdo here.