Heyy, so I'm amab and there's so much to unpack here that I get lost trying to think of what to write or leave out. Basically, I've always known I'm not quite the same as most cis/hetero men but I mostly thought of that as just being more open and accepting as others.. but I think I'm "others" too 🙃 Long story short, I recently started this online personal of a femboy (mostly to satisfy an exhibitionist kink and lonelness) and but it's like something in my brain is changing the more I do it! I'm finding that the more play the part and when I see the pictures presenting as femme, the more I feel it too. The attention that I get as a girl is more exhilarating than I expected and I've been talking to people in ways I never have before. In the passed couple of weeks I've had these huge floods of emotions and of memories of little quirks that I've always had.. how I've had multiple partners tell me that they think I'm either bi or nb.. how I've always identified with women in a way I couldn't explain to myself or others.. of the bullying in highschool.. of how many times I've been a woman on Halloween.. or something so small as always choosing a female character when given the option in video games... and the TV shows that I watch. Some of of sou da so silly but all of a sudden it all seems connected. I never thought of myself as bi or trans and enby or 2souls didn't feel quite right either but now I'm finding more terminology especially with help from a couple posts on this sub, and seeing how much bigger the spectrum is and realizing that there is a place for me in it. Even if I'm not sure what to call it yet 🥲 So I guess this is my coming out. I don't know if I could talk to anybody in my life about any of this but it feels good to get it put of my head.