Reconnected with an old school friend/crush online after 17 years of not talking to each other because of our lives etc. she sends pics and says how she wants to be together, how it was meant to be with the coincidences we kept discovering about us and our situation etc ... I told her in my last two relationships I basically waited for the girl to say she was interested etc. She even asked me for the first kiss which in my mind was the green light to start initiating stuff on my end etc..nk guessing games etc because she was the kind to ask me flat out ...

Eventually she flys out to meetup in person and I don't see any sign of her wanting me to initiate anything...which she mentions one night and says it's fine and she sees why women think I am not into them....

We didn't end up doing anything we texted about affection wise. No cuddling, kissing etc and the whole time I'm in my mind realizing I'm ruining this but I notice she is acting more annoy3d as time goes on - of course im not going to try something when she seems irritated....by the last day I'm already torn up mentally and stomach twisted in a knot because she's leaving so soon and everything in my mind went to shit....she spent the drive to the airport talking about how I need to speak up when something is on my mind, how I need to experience being uncomfortable because I shut down instead of speaking up etc....in my mind she's ending everything that happened the last 7 months...before she went in to airport she said something like I'll visit you in a year and see how you're doing and then she remembered I planned on moving back to hometown to be with her in 8 months (which I now have noo idea abut) ...after that I didn't hear from her when she landed back home or the following 2 days afterwards....this after being used to all day texting since December.... pictures....plans.....messages above how she is so excited for our future etc ....and me being me sent a single text saying that I guess she's made her mind up and that I thought I'd be worth more than 4 days after 17years followed by 7 months of daily texting/long distance- like relationship....

But I started reading about Gemini and break ups and quickly learned not to do the "I'm sad, hurt feelings begging " type of messages so I haven't sent anything else...but inside I am going crazy and haven't slept in 2 days now....she's knows my ex ghosted me and it took 2 years to get over it and here I am being ghosted after a 4 day trial run...I'm slow to open up I'll admit. But it makes me wonder how sincere she was with her messages about being together, me moving back, etc ....7 months or talking to nothing....it's killing me but the info I've read about them and breakups is to carry on not look/aft bothered, go out do stuff I normally wouldn't do etc. They hate the broken heart, I miss you speech etc so I won't do it.....

I'm hoping she's just decompressing from everything...she's the nicest person and it's out of character to just not say anything...even a goodbye or something.... idk. I guess I am looking for some thoughts/ideas or info....I'm new to this. Astrology thing and just recently started reading up on it....I'm a Pisces myself.... Going to end it here my hands killing me bc I'm on a phone....I'll answer any questions if need be...I just live alone here and don't have anyone remotely close to talk/vent to so im telling you guys...

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