This is kind of an update to my previous post here:

https://www.reddit.com/r/gayyoungold/comments/u0z2c0/i_miss_him_so_much/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

Me [28M] and him [53M] kind of started to talk again. We’ve been hanging out once every week except for some weeks when he’s busy with friends or family.

I have deep feelings for him and I think I am in love with him and I just can’t help it, even if I’ve felt hurt several times. I know I shouldn’t have developed feelings for him after he told me we’re just friends last Christmas but I can’t help it.

After his recent ex? boyfriend hurt him he was in pain and depressed. I felt bad when I found out and wanted to be just there for him especially when he was drunk and moaning.

Couple weeks later after his getaway trip we started talking and we hung out every weekend still do except for some weekends when he’s busy with family or friends.

Out of my feelings for him I tried to rent an apartment closer to him. He even gifted me with some silverware some kitchen knives for the new apartment saying that’s what friends do.

When he asked about why I was moving closer I said I wanted to be closer to him hesitantly because I was kinda worried he was gonna freak out. The following weekend he had me over to house and while we were running errands he said he’s moving to another state next year and that made me feel sad.

When I got back to my home that weekend I kinda confessed him again that I fell hard for him and I’m in love with him. He said he’s not in love with me but he cares about me as a friend.

He still talks to me like any other day and I’m just glad that we’re still friends. But at the same time I’m also depressed. I need you guys advice, I’m hurting inside even though I try to put a smile on my face.