I knew I was always interested in men but not until college did my fascination around older men really develop. Most of my friends didn’t know I was gay or that I had a large sexual appetite. Sadly this was my downfall early in life. If I hadn’t let my nerves of coming out get to me I could have had some fun adventures I think. I remember one time when I was 19 my friends and I all took ecstasy and when I went for a walk on my friends property I ran into his uncle having sex with another man and I wish I had gone up to them and joined in with them watching them have sex was so primal. Another time I was at Coachella and when a friend and I were talking after a set a nice older gay couple walked up to us and flirted with us and told us stories about their sexual experiences and we politely turned them down to join our friends but oh man what I would have done to slip back with them to their tent and serve them.