Hi, im a 19 year (20 next month) old trans man (being trans doesn't factor much into this - i am several years into transition and post top surgery and hormones and all)

I have been on Grindr since i turned 18 and i have had some hookups and fwb from there, probably around 7-10 different people. Most of these people have been in the 20-30 range. I didn't meet people too often because i was very nervous about it always and i lived at home so it was hard to coordinate, but i usually met with someone about once a month or every 2 months. I had both good and bad experiences. Unfortunantly my two worst experiences happened to be with a man in his mid-late thirties and a man in his early forties. These weren't traumatising experiences but they were very uncomfortable for me, especially with the oldest. And it was probably just an unfortunate coincidence that it happened to be with an older man but im still a little unnerved by it.

Now i've moved into my own apartment in a different city about a month ago and i have downloaded Grindr again. It's been 2-3 months since i met up with anyone and even then it was the same guy, so maybe its been 4-5 since i've met up with someone completely new. By now i have talked with a lot of people on grindr since i moved up here but i haven't met up with anyone yet because im finding it really hard to take that first step again. I have had a lot of men between 35-60 message me and im really conflicted. Because on one hand it's nice that they're probably experienced and might be less nervous which would help my nerves a lot. But i'm just having a hard time figuring out my feelings on the age difference and i would really like to hear some advice. Should i be more careful with the bigger age difference? Does it make a big difference that i am only around 20 and not around 25-30 should i wait till then to meet with anyone too much older than me? Or is this just unreasonable nerves?

i would really like to hear maybe your experiences both as the younger or older or just any advice you might have.