I wish I could change but I’m in my 30s and I’m more of a muscular bear/cub. Most older men I’ve encountered on the apps are normally into slimmer and younger guys. I did try a fooling around with someone my age just to see how I’d actually feel but it only confirmed that I’m really into older men, particularly daddy types.

I have regrets not being out sooner. Repressed most my “Good Christian” life. I used to be on the apps back then too and was a lot slimmer. I used to be hit on by all the gorgeous chubby daddy bears. I’d just trade pics with them but never meet because of what I believed then.

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time and tell my younger self what I know now.

Just venting and maybe need some encouragement. Thank you for reading.