I’m not really sure where to post this, so this is where I’m doing it.

My life is spiraling. I divorced my wife because I’ve always known I was gay (and she was mentally abusive). I’ve been processing that in counseling the last couple of years. I’m ready to move on, but every time I try, it fails. I was talking with a guy in a neighboring state who keeps changing his mind on what he wants, which I totally respect - he’s young, it’s going to happen.

Here’s where I’m giving up/feeling lost. I lost my parents when I was young. I have no one to look to for comfort. Maybe that makes me too needy in a relationship. I don’t feel like I ask for much though. Just someone checking in, even if we’re long distance. I lost my job recently due to budget cuts. So I’ve had 3 major life events recently - finally moving out of the house I’ve known as home for over a decade, filing/divorcing an emotionally abusive spouse, and losing my job.

I’m in counseling, but idk how much more I can take. Any guy that HAS shown interest in me locally only wants me to provide for him. Now that I’m in a tight spot, they all disappear.

Idk why I’m posting this. I guess maybe I’m hoping by writing this out I’ll change my mind on giving up. But I don’t know. I don’t feel like this is worth it…