So, I don't think this header is very accurate, but not sure how else to update.(duh, change the header name for those that want to follow) Bf (18) and I (52) had a good discussion tonight. He said he wasn't considering ending our relationship any longer. He wanted to have more friends and didn't know how to fit it in a relationship. Knowing him, I think that's 100 percent true. As I mentioned before he's a pendulum. Any issue he goes to the opposite direction until he can grasp it. We had a good night, very loving, very open about feelings. Today is our 6th month anniversary. I was hit up by an ex this week. I showed him the conversation and he said he was so relieved I didn't flirt back.

Then he said he told a guy from his past he'd meet him, later this month. He didn't mean it, it was harmless, he was just playing. That's what he said. Later I got to read it (he doesn't know this). He led him on. I choose to believe this because 1. I think he was very lost this week. 2. I've been cheated on and this felt different. 3. I don't think he has cheating in him.

I don't know if I want advice this time. I'm guessing most will think him a cheater, and me naive. I really don't, and not due to rose colored glasses. I don't think he has it in him and I think while he pushed me away, he still needed attention. I will admit, it's sad that in rough times I stayed true, but I remember being younger and attention was almost everything.

Until next time...