So I(31) posted yesterday about meeting an older man(57) for the first time. We were chatting online and some occasionally video call. He was extremely knowledgeable person which i worshipped. As this would be my first experience of sex I was too nervous. We made a plan to meet on Sunday. But today I was not able to concentrate on school for full day. So i decided to tell that I want to meet him today. He told me to come over. I travelled 2 hours to meet him. He is such a charming and caring person that I didnt hesitate to meet him in his place. He picked me up from Station. After going his place we talked a bit. Earlier I told him I am nervous and dont expect much from me. So he was not asking for anything at the first half hour. He made tea for me. Then I started to talk about sex. I was direct. I asked him it he has some disease. He assured me he doesnt. In fact he was not involved with anybody in last 2 years.

Then I started to set some rules. I told him i am not vaccinated, thats why I dont want any kind of unprotected oral sex or intimate kissing. He at first told me thats okay. But he also told he would love a passionate kissing as he thinks he gets aroused by intimacy. But I said please I need to learn about safe practice first. Then he hugged me and took me to his bed. In the bed i told him lets suck each other after wearing condoms. He seemed little bit off. But he accepted it too. He had a hurt surgery, I was fully erect but he was semi. He then tried to get inside me. But couldnt. I didnt know what to do that moment. Then I was kind of feeling guilty if this was me being too selective. We then started to jerk off each other. He came first. Then I came on his body. we hugged each other for few minutes.

We then took a shower and started for a walk. I didnt want to bring the topic, but he started to tell me that he had a heart surgery and for medication he was not able to do it as he liked. I told him it was really great. I might not like it more if he was inside me. The last hug was more important for me.

Still i am feeling little bit selfish. I dont know how this relationship will go. I would use some advice from you guys.