So, the flare says advice and I am happy you take any of that. But I am also looking for support. I have seen that a lot of support on this sub. This is all a bit of my story too.

14 years ago I was 36 [now 50] and started dating a 19yo [now 33] in the office. He chased after me. We dated for a little over a year and then he broke up. We stayed friends and eventually got back together. A couple of years after that he went out of town for a funeral and didn't come back for 6 months. I'm might also add that we had a roommate that was doing inappropriate things that I didn't know about until much later. We got back together and this lasted another couple of years and we got engaged Then he moved out and broke up again. And I got away from that former roommate and made a new life for myself. He came back to me because his new living situation was bad. Now he had a BF. We still fooled around and that stopped as his other relationship went on and I started to see other people. His other relationship ended and shortly after he came up to me and said all of the right things. Asked me to come back and marry him and that is whst we did. We got married, a few years later we bought a house and now a year and a half later we were almost done with the fostering to adopt process to make a family. Then a week and a half ago he tells me that he doesn't love me any ore hasn't for a while and he wants to separate. Every time he does this its the same he treats me like shit for a while then breaks it off finally and tries to convince me that I should have known when he was giving confusing signals. The issue with me is that when we are going we'll together we take each other to new heights everytime. We are the ultimate power couple. This time he is saying that there is no way we are getting back together and if by some chance we do it will be a long time from now. Im.beyind devastated. Not only does it look like my dream of a family is gone but I'm now 50. Time is running out for me it feels like to have a stable family especially when I am more attracted to younger guys. What thoughts and advice do you have. What do I do now?