About 12 years ago, I (now 38m) had my first true “relationship” with a guy who was just a few years younger than me. I was about to get divorced (from a woman) and we had big plans to move in together even though he lived a couple states away. I helped him out with some bills for a few months, then he abruptly ghosted me. After dealing with that, my wife and I got back together and I figured I was just stuck. Over the years, have talked to some guys but figured out that I still like younger guys. I am finally divorcing after coming out to her, but every guy I talk to acts like they want to get close - then once I get feelings, too, they change their mind. Is this just how it goes? I don’t want to be with someone just because I’m lonely, but I’m really afraid I’ll never find someone.