It’s been a good year since I’ve even touched another dick. I get spun and horned up, then get oiled up and end up stroking at home for 24 hrs. Then I’ll hop in the car with short shorts so I have easy access to my dick and cruise around looking for dudes showing some skin. I’ll usually find a park with a basketball court and see shirts and skins, but I wanna see more. If I get real desperate, the ymca has a sauna. But after fantasizing for 48 hrs, I don’t find the guys the least bit attractive, in fact they end up turning me off. Even trying the apps, they and me included, get so flaky and nothing ever materializes. I miss going to the gay saunas and baths, they are a voyeurs dream. I love watching guys with big fat hanging softies showering or walking towards me with swinging bouncing meat. The last fully naked guy I saw was this pretty good looking straight guy off the streets that I invited to my hotel room to party. He had a small muscular body, which I like, but a real small dick. We watched porn and jerked off for like two hrs and the he let me give him a back massage but got spooked when my floppy dick kept hitting his crack. So I let him hit the pipe over and over while I did his legs, but that was about it. He wouldn’t let me touch his dick, nuts, or ass. Wouldn’t touch mine either. I’m a total sub btm but I desperately want to completely control and worship that guy with the nice bod and my ideal 6 inch hangin dick. Keep him high as fuck and edge him for a couple days. Is that too much to ask? Maybe. Idk