I'm feeling kind of crappy about my gender/sexuality lately, and I know how to fix it, I'm just being stubborn.

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Essentially, I used to be more comfortable in my sexuality and gender, being a guy who likes guys (and other people, mainly guys these days though).

I've been spending a lot of time in these like... really bad online spaces, generally transphobic ones or just full of trans people who hate themselves. And it's been bringing back my old complex about all sorts of things- not looking as traditionally masculine as I could, not being muscular enough or being able to grow facial hair yet, feeling like a fetishist for liking men- like an intruder, a fujoshi, whatever you want to call it.

I know I should get out of these spaces, but it's honestly really addictive.

I feel bad about all sorts of things, dysphoric about all sorts of things that I thought I had grown out of. IDK.
I don't really expect advice, just getting this off my chest.