I have a regular man who lets me suck him off. I like to wear panties and be very submissive when I am sucking him. What we usually do is he comes over and I am laying on my bed in a sexy pair of panties. He like to rub me all over and then pull my panties down to my knees and then rub my ass. After a few minutes of this he will stand up and I will slide off of my bed onto my knees. He comes close and I undo his pants and suck him off.

Well last night was a little different. I was really horny so I emailed him and wanted to meet. He was horny too, but his wife was awake and he was not sure if he could get away. We were texting back and forth getting each other more and more horny.

Finally he text me that she was about to go to bed and he would be over in a little while. He also text me that he wanted to fuck me. Well, I have never been fucked and have only used a small toy once in a while, so I was noncommittal. I told him that I have never done that and he was too big for my tight ass. I have a very tight ass, the few times I have used a little toy, I have to use a lot of lube and be really careful.

He text back that he would rim my ass and be careful, still no commitment from me, but I still wanted him to come over because I was desperate to suck his cock and taste his cum.

So he is coming over and I get ready, I shower and put on some black panties with white lace. Then I unlock the door and lay face down on my bed. I know that he thinks my little ass is sexy and I like to tease him.

I hear him come in and lock the door, then he comes into my bedroom. We talk a little as he takes off his shoes then I get up and we embrace. He pulls me close and starts rubbing me all over and then runs his hands down to my panties, feeling my ass through the lacy silk. I let him have his way with me, it feels wonderful standing there wearing just my panties, knowing that this man thinks that I am so sexy and that I make him horny.

After a few minutes he puts his hands on my shoulders and pushes me down to my knees. This is where I love to be. I unzip his pants and help him out of them as he takes off his shirt. Then I start sucking him and feeling him grow harder and harder in my mouth. He just stands there enjoying the feeling of his cock pushing against the back of my throat.

Then he pushes me away from his cock and makes me stop sucking him. Then he pushes me around and makes me lay my upper body on the bed while my knees are on the floor, with my little ass pointing at him. He gets behind me and makes me spread my legs apart so he can kneel between my legs. He starts to play with my ass and then pulls my panties down and makes me take them off. He spreads my ass cheeks apart and I feel his hot breath on my ass, then he licks my asshole. This is the first time I have ever been rimmed and was very nervous about him doing this to me. But he did not care, he was doing this for him and not me. He kept spreading my ass wide open and forcing his tongue into my tight little asshole. It was incredible! The feeling of his tongue probing my ass and then he reached between my legs and played with my balls and cock. It was feeling so good that I was grunting and moaning. Every time I felt the tip of his tongue, I tried to push back and make him push deeper into my ass. I felt like such a selfish slut, letting him please me while I just lay there.

Then he stopped and and was getting something from his pants pockets. It was lube. I still did not want him to fuck me and I still knew that he was too big.

Now I know how women feel when men take control and have their way with them. I wanted to speak up and make him stop. I wanted to just finish him off with my mouth. But I was not in control at all. I was naive and thought that I would let him rub me some more and then I could stop him.

He squirted lube on my ass and I felt it dripping down my crack and over my balls. He started massaging my little asshole with his finger. I could not tell if he was actually fingering me or just pushing against my asshole. He was getting too rough and I told him to be careful, but then he just started doing it again.

Next he stopped and rubbed his hard cock up and down my slippery ass crack. This was feeling good and I relaxed and let him do this to me. Then I felt both of his hands on my hips as he held me and started poking my ass with his cock. I guess he could not get it lined up and I may have been squirming a little, so he layed his chest on my back and I felt all of his weight on me. It was killing my knees and I was beginning to feel like I could not breathe. He let go of my hips and I felt his right arm between me and him. I knew he was trying to line up and I stayed really still and let him. I felt his cock at the entrance and I felt him pushing against me. I know he got the tip in, but not even all of the head. He stopped and used his hand to put some more lube on me and tried again. I felt like I was being raped, but I did not want him to stop. He kept trying and I was pushing back against him but did not get any more of his cock into me.

He must have gotten frustrated because he got off of me and let out a frustrated sigh and sat in the chair that I keep in my room. I felt my face flush hot and red with the shame that I had let him down. I just stayed on my knees and kept my head down, not sure of what I should do.

Then he said “Come here and suck my dick”. His cock still had a lot of lube on it and I knew that he had been rubbing it against my ass. What I was about to do kind of disgusted me but I knew that he was frustrated and needed relief. And I know what a good cocksucker I am. So I picked up a tee shirt and got some of the lube off of his cock and balls, then went to work on pleasing him. I could still taste and feel the lube (and my ass?), but I tried not to think about it. I just wanted to make him cum.

I was sucking him as good as I could and it seemed like the lube was making him go deeper than I could usually take him. I knew he was really frustrated because he was being really rough and forcing my head down as he thrust his hips up, making me take more and more of his hard cock. It was almost like he wanted to punish me for not letting him fuck me. I let him have his way with my mouth. I was silently crying as he took out his frustration on my mouth. Tears were running down my face, if he saw this he either thought my eyes were just watering or did not care that I was crying.

My spit was building up in my mouth and it seemed like there was a still lot of lube in my mouth too, the more I thought about it the more I wanted to gag. But at this point I knew if I gagged I would make such a mess on his balls and he would have to stop. I just wanted to finish him. I knew that he was getting close because he had both hands on my head and was breathing heavy and thrusting harder and harder. I tried to take some breaths and let him finish.

Then without warning me, he pulled back a little and shot his load into my mouth. I could feel at least three strong spurts and I knew that there was still more coming out that I could not feel. I held him in my mouth letting him calm down some, then I sucked on him as he pulled out of my mouth to keep him clean.

I usually like having him cum in my mouth and swallowing, but after everything that had happened I was having a difficult time. I was still on my knees and I looked up, taking some deep breaths through my nose, hoping the gagging feeling would go away, but my mouth was so full of my spit, lube and his cum I was having a really hard time. Finally I managed to gather it all together in my mouth and start to swallow. I swallowed about half at first and felt the slim of his cum just coating my throat, this caused my stomach to heave, but I fought it down. Then I swallowed the last half of this sperm cocktail and finally got a deep breath through my mouth and regained some of my composure.

By this time he had started putting his pants back on. I guess that he could tell that I was upset with myself at having failed him, because he came over and pulled the front of his underwear down and let me take his cock into my mouth. I sucked his soft cock as he petted my head. After a minute of this he pulled out and finished getting dressed. I stayed on my knees in a submissive position until he was about to leave. Then I said to him”Thank you for letting me suck your dick.”. He acknowledged this with a non-committal grunt and left, leaving me there on my knees with a lubed up ass. Alone in my room.