[apologize in advance for how long this was]

I was visiting Indianapolis for a conference and hit up an old college housemate - let’s call him Mike - to stay at his place instead of a hotel. For context, I (24 at the time) was bi-curious at the time but during college was definitely not out and had a girlfriend. I met Mike while we were in a Christian student club in college.

I always had a slight crush on this Mike but had to suppress it because at the time I was very religious and had not come to terms with my sexuality, and I was dating Mike’s best friend’s sister - long story haha - fun fact, this best friend was also one of my housemates and also really attractive but that’s for another story. Mike is 6’1 former HS soccer player but during college more so focused on surfing and skateboarding but still had a nice body. While living with him in college, got to see him with minimal clothing and he loved to wear basketball shorts without underwear or just boxers so I have seen quite a bit.

I thought that he was gonna be the main focus of my trip, until his Dutch roommate, let’s call him Anton, came home from work. Mike didn’t mention he had a roommate so this was a surprise. Anton is this handsome 22 year old, 6’3 guy, more lanky but still has some muscle, but looks very European. While we were having dinner he mentioned having a long time girlfriend back in Europe, so I assumed he was generally straight.

We came back home and I set up my air mattress in the living room while Mike went to bed in his bedroom. As I got settled on my air mattress, Anton came out of his room to grab a glass of water and said, “oh you’re staying out here? Thought you’d be staying in Mike’s room. It gets cold out here, feel free to move your air mattress to my bedroom.” I didn’t question it one bit and brought the mattress into his room. He offered to let me sleep in his bed while he slept on the air mattress, I guess to be a good host. After a bit of back and forth and him insisting, I agreed.

We ended up talking for a while when the topic of getting massages came up, and I talked about how I took a wellness class in college that taught us basic massage technique we can use on a friend or partner, and that I loved massaging as much as getting massages. And then all of a sudden he said “well, in return for letting you sleep in my bed, I wouldn’t mind one.” I laughed awkwardly since I wasn’t expecting it and said “haha we’ll see” and the conversation ended as we proceeded to go to sleep.

My heart was beating hard after that since all of a sudden I felt so horny and couldn’t tell if that was an invitation. I wanted to wait until he was asleep so I can jerk myself and relieve whatever tension I was feeling. I waited to hear his breathing to see if he was sleeping and 1 hour later I realize neither of us had gone to bed. I hear him cough and check his phone so I say “can’t sleep? Me neither” and he responds “yeah, but you know a massage would help me pass out…” I ask him “do you have lotion or massage oil” which he responded “I have lube…”

At that point I was ready for whatever came after this, everything we talked about after was mostly a blur but what I remember is that he took his shirt off and lay and face down on the air mattresses I proceeded to sit on top of him as I massaged his back and then slowly around his lower back and top of his glutes. I kept pulling the waist band around his hips lower so I can get to his lower back but he said “I’ll make it easier for both of us” and takes his shorts off. He had a nice plump butt, like he played soccer or something, and lightly hairy. At that point I knew he was into whatever I was into doing. I spent a lot of time on his butt and hole and inner thigh.

When he turned over his cock was semi erect and already leaking pre-cum which I pretend to ignore while massaging around it. It was around 5 inches somewhat soft and very thick and uncircumcised. I would ‘accidentally’ bump into his balls while massaging his inner thigh and then his cock would twitch harder and longer until it was closer to 7.5”/8” and very thick, like a coke can.

He told me I could do whatever I wanted to him - which I proceeded to lick his balls while massaging his legs and stomach. I had my crotch close to his feet and he would fondle my hard cock through my shorts with his toes, which he decided to kick my shorts off with his feet while I sucked his dick. We tried our best to be quiet so Mike couldn’t hear but Anton moaned quite a bit. He ended up cumming in my mouth while I jerked myself off, and it was such a big load.

When all was said and done we cleaned up, and he said “I assume we won’t be telling Mike any of this” I nodded before he passed out on the mattress. When I woke up he was already off to work and I left before he came back. He ended up adding me on Facebook but that was the last time we ever saw each other.

A year later I saw he got engaged to his long time Asian girl friend and they’re now married with kids. I’ve never told Mike this and don’t intend to but fantasize about this night all the time.